Love is weird like me

hello. i've been doing pretty good. infact, life is great. i dont know that i've ever been happier. love will do that to you. i went out to the mall yesterday with Austin. it was awsome. he dosnt complain about going into girly stores, he carries the stuff, and he pays for it. not bad. we wanted to hang out cause we missed seeing each other on valentines day. that and we just wanted to hang out. thats another good thing about him. he actually cares about what i want to do or what i say. he actually wants to see me. he goes out of his way to walk me to my classes and see me each time it's possible during the day. he calls me twice a day and usually on time, too. he's really weird, but so am I. he's also really funny. he says nice things to me and i know he means it. danile didnt do anything. ever. he never cared much, he somtimes wouldent call for a month, and he never did anything nice. I've always been a pretty open person. when im attatched to someone i dont notice there jerks. im soooo glad daniel broke it off. i just wish i had done it. now ive found Austin. or i guess maybe he found me. things are so great! i know we havent been dating for that long, but i love him. i didnt love daniel. i love Austin. and no one can tell me i dont. when i see or even think about him i get this funny feeling. im getting it now just typing about it. something sort of slips inside me. theres this tingling behind my lungs, but not in my stomach. it cradles my heart. something electirc and breathing. it grabs my heart in little shocking tentacles, buzzing  until my heart beats faster. then i get a feeling in my stomach to. like  a lead weight in the bottom of my gut. but at the top i can feel butterflys floating around. my hands shake and im the most nervous and excited i've ever been. things between us are just so natural. we can talk and have fun. life is so great. i hope the feeling never wears off. i hope that were together for the rest of forever, and then a little more. i know that it sounds like im just some sappy teenager, but i am completeley seriuos. and do you want to know the best thing? he loves me back. i havent told my parents that i love him yet. i dont know how they'll take it. there really afraid im going to have sex as it is. i know they love me and care about my future, but it really bugs me. they raised me they should know my morals! just because their not watching me dosent mean i abandon all logic and moral reasoning. but anyways, the point is i get the feeling my parents would equate love with sex. if i told them i loved him they'd never leave us alone. or worse, they'd say i was just infatuated. nothing is more untrue. we find each other attractive, but thats not what love is at all. so in any case im gonna wait a while to tell them. so that means any relative reading this( Jessica, Emily) PLEASE IN THE NAME OF ALL THATS GOOD DONT TELL MY PARENTS WHAT I'VE SAID HERE!! maybe they would understand and im just being stupid, but im still gonna wait a while to tell them. any ways! sorry for such a long post!!!

ps---for valentines day Austin bought me a 40 dollar dvd boxset of star trek!! 40 DOLLARS!! and a chicken sandwhich.and some taffy. im an expensive date i guess.i went to the mall once with daniel. he wouldnt even buy my lunch.

BYEEEEE!!!!!!!

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meee!!!!!

im so fille with awsomness!!!

 my plan for dating conquest has been realized! this evil plan has worked better than any other of my evil plans! Austin asked me out! im soo happy!!! he's very sweet, he's nice and actually cares!! and as if his fun random personalitiy was not enough, he's cute too. veeerrryyy cute. so yeah life is good for valerie!

why does no one comment me!! how long does it take people!!!!!!!

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Hey Y'all!!!! it has snowed! magical marshmellows have rained from the sky and caused us to have a snow day!!!! yippe! oh, and all the boys at uor school are stupid. i've been looking. but there all stupid.if you know any nonstupid ones let me know!